Nurture 2016-17
I did
surprisingly well on last year’s goals except for one. I pledged to read 52 books and didn’t get
anywhere near that goal (I shall revisit the why and what next as I look
ahead). But I also pledged to pick up my
MA study, breathe new life into my CPD programme, find the love in teaching
again, make Devon home and let go of a problem that had been a problem for a
long time. Well in 2016, I attended MA
summer school and met a group of inspiring people who made me believe I was
capable of anything – something I am incredibly grateful to them for. In 2016, I did breathe new life into my CPD
programme – the introduction of book club went really well and has planted the
seed for a Book Club Teaching and Learning Conference (watch this space for
more details). In 2016 I reconnected
with the people I love (family and partner) and started to stop taking them for
granted, that ticked two boxes – it enabled me to let go of ‘the’ situation and
resulted in the purchase of our new home in Devon. In 2016 when I said ‘I am going home’, I
actually started to mean ‘to Devon’. And
teaching? Yeah I do kind of love it
again.
So onwards
and upwards… What do I want to achieve in 2017?
1.
Read.
The reading thing is key and symptomatic of a bigger problem. I don’t read because I figure if I have
enough time to read then I have time to do more schoolwork. I have an unhealthy work-life balance, I feel
guilty anytime I am doing something that isn’t school related. I got pretty poorly over the last couple of
months and yet didn’t take a single day off because the guilt feels worse than
the ill. And actually that would be okay
except that I realised (with the help of a wise person or two) that when I do
this, I role model to everyone else my own unhealthy attitude to work. I don’t know how to not work, how to switch
off but I have to try to figure it out because I should be allowed to go to the
gym or take a weekend off or get the sleep I need or read a book and I have to
demonstrate to other people that they are entitled to that too. So two goals off one goal – read more but
also give myself permission to take time out and switch off.
2.
Make a difference.
I used to feel that I made a difference every time I got up and went to
work and I don’t feel like that anymore.
I miss it. I am a lucky person. I am, quite frankly, blessed. And if 2016 opened my eyes to anything, it is
that there are far too many people who are not.
I want to make things better, fairer and more just. Life can be horribly unfair and I want to be
part of a solution not part of the problem.
I am a bit obsessed with parity and fairness and often bite my tongue
when I see the unfairness I am surrounded by – I don’t think I want to do that
this year. I want to speak up when
something is wrong, reach out if someone needs help and just live my life with
a little more compassion. I am not sure
how or what yet but I need to find a way to make a difference – find a way to
make the world better even if it is in the smallest of ways.
3.
Be inspired.
Professionally this year, I have a couple of goals. One is to use the opportunities my MA
presents to research things that are important and matter – and that challenge
my thinking as a leader. The second is
to provide opportunity – through my work, my school and our Teaching School
Alliance - I want to take every opportunity to support the work of groups like
#WomenED #BAMEed #CharteredCollegeofTeaching and to bring some of the best and
most inspiring speakers to the South West.
I want to find ways to inspire as I have been inspired.
4.
Ambition and Challenge
For a long time I have been quite scared to talk about my career
ambitions – there are those who make you feel like ambition is a bad
thing. But I am not ambitious for the
sake of it and I am in no rush. I just
want to keep my career goals in my mind and feel proud rather than embarrassed about
them. I want to work in Washington
DC. I want to be a Headteacher one
day. I might want to do a doctorate at
some point (although I am reserving judgement until I know whether or not I
have passed my MA). I want to take every
opportunity that will prepare me for this possibilities and ask people to help
me be ready for these challenges. But
ultimately I just want to feel confident enough to pursue my goals.
5.
Be more than a job.
I want to make time for the people who matter. I want to be more than the job – I want to
travel to cool places, meet up with great people, take amazing photographs,
write interesting essays and maybe find a way to care of myself to a standard I
usually reserve only for work. I want to
try and sort my health out.
Will I manage it all? Almost
certainly not. Will I give it a bloody
good try? Yes I think I will. 2016 was a
year of sadness and surprise but I also had some great experiences and have come
out of it a happier person. Now I ready
for the next chapter – 2017, let’s be having you!
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